The word that is constantly in my brain right now is life. Life. A word with four letters yet it feels like it carries the weight of the entire English language. My life has had rainbows and thunderstorms, hurricanes, and droughts; all the while leaving me contemplative yet longing for something more, something in the future.
Life as a teacher finds me in treacherous waters. I struggle to keep up, to make a difference, to learn, and keep my head above water. This coupled with making a home and living a life with my husband is most difficult. I have lived a life full of wonderment.
My husband and I have been together for 10 years in July 2010, married for 5 in October of this year. He has been my "only" experience in anything considered relational (let your mind wander, you will undoubtedly be correct). Though the ignorance of my youth portrayed this situation as ideal (given my religious background) I now find well into adulthood this lack of experience has made it very hard to adapt to a life where one partner has grown and continued to improve and change while the other has remained stagnant.
Uncharted territory is where my life has led me now. I have a husband who loves, respects and adores me. I on the other hand am lost for words. I feel new, reborn, changed. Trying to fit him in the mix has been most difficult.
How does one tackle life when life is tackling her!? As for now, the world continues to turn!
